The Heart Behind It All

Still becoming? Me too.

Then, sometime last year, God anchored my heart with Isaiah 43:19:

"See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?"

Those two words - new and perceive - wouldn't let me go.

Because when life begins to shift, it's difficult to perceive anything except what's falling apart. When the familiar starts to fade, carefully made plans unravel, and life no longer looks the way you imagined, it's easy to become consumed by what's changing instead of noticing what God is doing.

Yet, in the quiet, God continued to whisper the same truth to my heart:

"I am moving."

"I am present."

"I am faithful."

"I am not finished."

And if I'm being completely honest, my spirit has often been willing while my mind struggled to catch up.

I knew God was inviting me into something new, but my thoughts didn't always know how to follow.

I've learned that our minds naturally become familiar with what they've experienced. We cling to predictable patterns because they feel safe, even when God is lovingly calling us somewhere new. I began to realize that what had once helped me survive was now making it difficult to fully embrace where God was leading me.

This journey has required far more than saying the right faith-filled words.

It has required me to surrender the very places I fought hardest to control.

It has meant unlearning old ways of thinking, confronting unhealthy patterns, releasing misplaced expectations, and allowing God to gently renew the way I think, respond, trust, and live.

By God's grace, there are battles I've watched Him bring me through. Others...

I'm still learning to surrender one day, and sometimes one moment at a time.

And perhaps that's been one of the most humbling lessons of all.

Healing doesn't always happen overnight.

Growth isn't always loud.

Renewal isn't always instant.

Sometimes God restores us in layers.

Sometimes He strengthens us slowly.

Sometimes He's transforming us long before we recognize the evidence of His work.

Let me tell you, this journey has become my real-life invitation into Romans 12:2.

It hasn't been a neat or effortless transformation, no that's just to easy.

It's been a daily surrender of old thought patterns, misplaced expectations, and the temptation to cling to what once felt familiar - my comfort zone.

Some days have felt heavier than I ever imagined - EVER!

But through this roller coaster ride, God has faithfully been renewing my mind... one quiet act of obedience, one surrendered thought, and one gentle reminder of His truth at a time - aannnd this is the part that challenges me the most.

Confession?

I'm the kind of woman who loves a plan.

Color-coded calendars make me ridiculously happy.

I appreciate a good to-do checklist.

I breathe knowing what's next.

And if I could map out the next five years with a cup of coffee in hand... I'd probably try.

So imagine my surprise when God lovingly invited me into a chapter where almost nothing went according to my plan.

Right when you think you have some type of momentum, you quickly take 3 steps back.

Whew...

That'll humble a girl.

Along the way, I've discovered something I never expected:

Some of God's deepest work doesn't happen after we've made it through the process...

It happens while we're still in it - man, go figure.

That's why I created Held in the Process.

Not because I've figured this journey out.

Not because I have perfectly wrapped testimonies.

Not because I've arrived.

I created it because I realized I'm probably not the only woman quietly asking or maybe evening yelling,

"God...what are You doing?" or if I'm being super transparent "Loorrd, what the heck was that?"

Held in the Process is a guided conversation with God for women who are still becoming.

It's a place where faith meets the unfinished parts of real life.

Where honesty is welcomed.

Where questions aren't ignored.

Where healing doesn't have to be rushed.

Where tears aren't a sign of weak faith.

Where laughter is still holy.

Where God gently meets us exactly where we are.

Around here you'll find...

☕ Honest conversations from the middle of my own journey.

📖 Scripture that meets real life.

🤍 Heartfelt prayers we'll pray together.

🌿 Gentle encouragement rooted in God's faithfulness.

📚 Faith-filled journals, devotionals, printables, and resources created while I'm still walking this journey myself.

😂 And yes...the occasional millennial reference, awkward joke, or "whew" moment (because that's just who I am.)

I don't write because I've mastered the process.

I write because I've discovered that God faithfully meets us in the middle of it.

So if you're carrying questions, disappointments, hopes, prayers, or dreams that feel far from becoming reality...

Pull up a chair.

Take a deep breath.

Grab your favorite cup of coffee (or tea - I don't judge 😉).

Let's walk with God together.

Because neither one of us has arrived.

But we don't have to walk this road alone.

I'm so grateful you're here.

♥ Lauren

Hi, I'm Lauren.

And no... I don't have this figured out.

Held in the Process wasn't born from a chapter I had already overcome, it was born from one I'm still walking through. I'm not writing from the finish line. I'm writing from the middle of a story that God is still faithfully unfolding.

If I'm honest, this isn't the story of a woman who has arrived. It's the story of a woman God is still transforming.

This journey has stretched me, softened me, and challenged me in ways I never expected. So much of what once felt steady shifted beneath me. The plans I carefully held, the comfort I relied on, the sense of control I clung to, and even the version of myself I thought I had to be.

Yet in the middle of all that uncertainty, one truth has continued to steady my heart:

God is still near. He is still faithful. And He is still working, even when I cannot yet see the full picture.

What We Believe

Held in the Process was born from a season I'm still living through. That's right, I'm not writing from the other side of the process; I'm walking through it, too. Every lesson, prayer, journal, and reflection shared here is being lived before it's ever written, as God faithfully leads me through seasons of change, grief, healing, surrender, and becoming. My hope is that as we journey together, you'll discover that even in the uncertainty, He is always present, always working, and always drawing us closer to Him.

Because of that, this ministry isn't built on having all the answers. It's built on the unshakable truth that God faithfully meets us in the good, bad, and the ugly seasons. He is present in the waiting, purposeful in the stretching, and sovereign over every season that shapes us into who He has created us to be.

Held in the Process is a place where faith meets the raw and unfinished parts of real life. A place where honesty is welcomed, tears are healing, hope is continually renewed, and you don't have to pretend that everything is okay to experience the presence of God. Here, you're invited to bring your questions, your fears, your disappointments, your broken prayers, and even the dreams you've quietly tucked away. None of it is too much for Him. He welcomes every part of your story with grace, compassion, and unfailing love.

We believe God is always at work, even when we cannot understand and or see what He is doing. In seasons of waiting, wilderness, grief, uncertainty, or silence, His presence does not diminish. He remains near, intentional, and faithful. While we may not always understand His timing or His ways, we trust that He is weaving together every chapter of our lives with purpose, redeeming what feels broken and bringing beauty from places we once believed could never bloom again.

Find Encouragement

We believe the Word of God is living, active, and trustworthy. Scripture is more than encouragement for difficult days... it's the foundation that anchors our hearts, renews our minds, and reminds us of what is eternally true. We believe prayer is an invitation into deeper communion with God, where we find peace that steadies us, wisdom that guides us, strength for today, and hope for tomorrow. And we believe faith is often choosing to take the next faithful step, even when God has not yet revealed the entire path before us... and that is scary, I know!

Above all, we believe that no season is ever wasted in the hands of God. Not the grief. Not the waiting. Not the stretching. Not the silence. Not even the seasons where you gave up and questioned where He was/is. He is present in EVERY moment, faithfully shaping, refining, restoring, and drawing us closer to Him.

Sometimes the miracle isn't that the wilderness ends as quickly as we hoped. Sometimes the miracle is discovering that God never left us there alone. He walks with us, sustains us, transforms us, and carries us. Oh yes, I have been carried or maybe even dragged at one point, lol - many times. However in time, He opens our eyes to see that His faithfulness was woven into every step of the journey.

Know that you are deeply loved, intentionally formed, and faithfully held - even in the process.

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